Making Time
When I first started this blog back in September of 2017, I had already been drafting posts and was really excited to share since my son was born in August. Then, life with a newborn took off in full speed and I didn’t make this a priority. I continued to write but left each post as a draft and never hit “publish.” Then I finally posted again in January of 2018 only to lose my motivation, yet again. Fast-forward to a year later and here I am posting a g a i n. This is not what I had planned for this space. This was supposed to be a stress-free zone for me to document my story.
I thought about writing in here nearly everyday. In fact, I wrote in my calendar to post in here each week and never followed through. I just let it become this thing that hung over me. Why? I have so many great things that I’d like to document in here, but never actually do it. It was important that I figured out why I wasn’t posting. Was it because I didn’t want to? No, because I thought about it nearly everyday. I also wrote posts and left them to collect dust in my drafts. Maybe I was nervous to publish certain things in case someone out there actually read it. Maybe I underestimated what it meant to raise a baby, cook, clean, shop, play-dates, workout, spend time with family and friends, whatever. Who knows, it could even be a combination of those things.
But, what I finally decided was that it’s not about having time, it’s about making time to post, if I really want to. And I do! I just needed to take the pressure off of feeling like I needed to post everyday. I’m only going to post when I have something to share. This is my space, I can do what I want.
So, I’m going to just write about what’s on my mind and it might not even be in chronological order. And, for me, that’s hard to do. My OCD usually forces me to have everything in order and in its place. But, screw it, I’ll see what happens.
How about you, is it a challenge for you to make time for the extra things in your life? How do you deal?
Here’s to making time for the things that really matter.
• RL